Let me start this off by saying that I just got two new hats. For a while now a lot of people have been telling me that I need to retire my old one. To be more accurate, they have been telling me to snatch it off my head and set it on fire.

Any way, so someone bought me two new hats. One of which I am wearing right now. They are both nice hats.

But this is not the point I want to make. So, this person that bought me these hats had mentioned that he would be out drinking the next evening.

So the next day I had supper with my family. Kind of a birthday/anniversary get together. As I was being dropped off by my brother at my apartment I told him that if I went out that night I would call him.

Going out that night had completely slipped my mind. So, for a good four or five hours I played video games until I got a call reminding me about my brother. I put on my shoes and headed down to meet him at Steve’s Old Time Tap. I bought the table a pitch of beer and we sat around and bullshitted until I was struck again with the memory that the guy from last night had said he would be out.

I pulled out my phone and gave him a call. He had said that he was at the bar down the street. I told him that I would finish up my drink and meet him there. I downed the beer and my brother and I headed to the Blue Cat. We found the guy and sat down with him at the bar and had a drink with him. After a while he asked if I wanted to play a game of pool with him. Later on into the game he told me that he had invited a lot of people out and that my brother and I were the only ones to show up. He didn’t tell any one but that night was his birthday.

Ouch.

Seeing as how I am in a exhausted state of being right now, it got me to thinking. Had I done the same thing on my birthday, who would show up?

The number isn’t that great. I’m not going to pretend that I am really surprised but it is, none the less and if nothing else, disheartening.

Now, I have been spreading myself pretty thin here recently. It has really started to take its toll on me. So, I am trying to decide to cut the fat from my life. Lose the dead weight. I say trying because I have never been that good at saying no. I just need to find it in myself to of what is dragging me down for the sake of myself and those that I still have hopes of helping.

I hope that this make a little sense.